Friday, November 6, 2009

My 19th birthday~

The day was 16th september 2009 :P
And was also the most embarrassing night for me hehe...
I was attending UBF and after the class, my seniors pulled a surprise birthday party for me :)
While blowing the candles, my tears rolled....and wet my cheek...I just can not stop crying and sulking...

I wondered why....
I was conscious so was my brain..
but I was pulled into another dimension perhaps...
was filled with flashback of every year's birthday event...and i cried later on...
everyone was shocked...
Soon later, they broke the silence and asked...
I could not answer them...instead told them that this moment is the first time in my 19 years...
I was celebrating my birthday with friends!!!

I know this is ridiculous
but it is true :)
You guys might think that I am a sissy or so...
It is up to you to judge people but I do not mind what others think of me..

I once heard this from an old speaker..
He said:"Sometimes it is hard to tell others that I am are gay or sissy."
This phrase gives me a very deep impact...
To make it simple to understand:

"Humans are fill with dignity and are always in that world.
They do not want to be critiqued to a certain extend where they feel that themselves or their family are being questioned with insults,
therefore they keep quiet with things which they felt embarrassed to share and boasts about the achievements they have made."

Courage alone will not help one to go against the dignity they possessed.
With our egoism lowered or dignity put aside will then allowed us to say such embarrassing things like:"I am a gay."

Mostly people are playing a fool with their friends saying that they are so so and so on but they never meant it..
When a stranger questioned us with such insults, will we still be feeling the same?
I think anyone will feel the heat flowing in their vein and ready to counter the next step in order to protect self dignity or families.

From my point of view,
I think that dignity is just something which we cannot measure or grasp..
We do not know to what extend a dignity can go neither long or short.
Therefore, we should put dignity aside.
Do not worry what others think or comment about us as those negative feelings of people towards us will eventually disappear and they will go back to normal.
This way, we will learn how to accept people's opinion and treat it in a positive manner :)
This is also a very important behavior which we should practice before we present ourselves to the working world :)

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Birthday card signed by my uni friends :)



Outer look :)

Was not able to retrieve the pictures with the seniors as the camera belongs to a friend called Daniel and he is now at UK pursuing his studies.
Wish him luck in studies :)
Thx guys ^^



Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Date of rememberance~

It was on 31st of October...
Had a date with my ex-schoolmate~ **Janisse**
Hmmm....she is the only primary schoolmate which I still keep contact with :S
Other are...forgotten @@
OMG stupid me!! Wakaka....

It is hard to keep contact with friends after separating when we graduate from primary school...
The fact that some of them kept changing number ,so it is hard for me to even take the number down...
Boo...too bad.... :(
At least I kept contact with Janisse hehe...
Nothing special on that day itself...
Went to her college and picked her up...
Went swimming, a movie and had baskin robbins :)
Yummy strawberry cheesecake~
It was 31st and it is a waste not to get them and I also promised to get her ice cream after her finals. So there it goes ^^
We shared a pint....both of us was so full cause of the waffles we had for lunch before we watched surrogates...
She enjoyed the whole day....glad with it ^^

Her waffle with extra blueberry toppings :)





my chocolate waffle with chocolate syrup :)
yummy~



It is not easy to make a girl happy :(
At first she was not happy because of somethings when we chatted online ...
So she agreed to go on a date with me ^^ and....it turn out something memorable for us :S
Nothing more to expect from primary school friends ^^
Thanks for the day too Janisse :)

From my point of view, making a girl happy is hard...
if we manage to get a little of information of the girl, it may turn out to be easy....
And always be yourself...they like that....
Just like what happened with my date with Janisse...
Was not sure with what I should talk about but silly things can just make them smile ^^
Different girl have different attitude...
Be sure to choose the right one .... the same technique will not always helps ^^

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Addition picture for the last post :D



This is another store :D
Just opposite the last shop though~

My meal for that day~
Forgot what day is it.....
Oh well...still looks tasty :)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Completion of a "Chapter"

Been eating maigre for the past 9 days and yesterday was my last day :D
Kind of happy cause i kept my precepts in doing that for this NINE EMPEROR FESTIVAL(九王爷大帝).
Was not an easy task as I need to keep track of what i ate for the past nine days :(
Oh well, now that it is done...im happy with it :D
Not that i happy because I am able to eat meat now but actually for myself :)
VICTORY! YAY! :)

One of the dishes i had :D(top and side view~)



Vegetarian Pan Mee


Pork rice


Chicken rice


Oh ya..almost forget....THE RESTAURANT :D


From my point of view,the taste is not bad....quite delicious at times when your are hungry @@
Frankly speaking,this is not a bad shop to pick if you want to take maigre for a change or maybe for fun...
Can not actually tell you what is the address is but it is located just beside South city plaza :D
Sorry for the shortage of information :(
Will be more efficient next time hehe xD

Actually, this time I wanna touch about the issue of being a vegetarian...
Whenever people say they eat maigre for fun or long term,we often think about they eating them because of religion issues...
Maybe because I am the only one thinking? Or maybe you also?
I reacted this way towards my friends which are eating maigre for long term or not, either chinese or indians.
Kind of insulting as it is some sensitive issue @@
I also do not like the way people reacted when I answered them what I am eating...
Sometimes, I eat for fun as to cleanse my body from meaty acids(my own term lol), sort of healthy in some sense(if you know what I am saying :D).

It is not easy to stand the way people reacted with different way such as stare or give weird comments and etc... towards this issue :(
I,myself do not like it....
Therefore, I should stop thinking that way towards others :D
Cheers~ Another way to stop people from hating me hehe....

A healthy mind comes from a healthy lifestyle and also the intake of food daily....
Try taking maigre for a change :) A try maybe?

What says you?

PS:As you can see from the sign board, (二元) means RM2 and everything in that shop only cost RM2!!!That is what surprised me :) 3dishes and rice at the price of rm2? Is it worth a meal?

Thursday, October 22, 2009

What an eye sore....


Just finished the 7th quiz of the week @@
So stressful...some more all I do not know how to do...
Damn...so hard to even get a high carry marks for my subjects >.>

It was 4 in the afternoon and was ready to go back to hostel...
while waiting for bus(normally walk back but due to rain...)Isaw something which is an eye sore to the malaysian culture...
maybe its normal as it seems like what malaysian always do lol...
but still...this is not something to be proud of...

The picture up there...looks funny right?
with all the commotion and people gathering under the rain...
Who is so free to go look at something under the rain ? Will you?
Not me of coarse...
It is not something normal :D

Let me explain :D
Look at the yellow clamp on the front tyre of the :D
They are some morons who break the rules and regulation of the university...simply park their car...I am happy to actually see the security forces clamped their car but...see what happens in the picture....
They called some friends over and try to lift that car in order to get the clamp out LOL!
Dude..its only RM50 fine...cant you pay for your MISTAKES and learn instead of getting worse?
DAMNED people with DAMNED brains!!!

What bloody cheapskates....
failure perhaps?
not to insult..but after a wrong doing,one must learn from the mistakes they made and try to improve...
Hope they learn something from this or maybe not...they will not even get agitated by such small matters...
Oh well...

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Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Quizzes @@

Did not have time to update my blog :D
been busy with uni life i guess o.>
maybe not...been playing games and facebook-ing more lol...
sad case...

how to say this....
next week I will be having finals for my first semester in degree :(
so hard for me as I was not prepared for it...

Back to topic :D
this week is a tiring week...
had 7 quizzes and 1 assignment to hand in lol @@

Anyways,need to keep up with my preparation for finals and quizzes @@
Good luck to me :)

Besides,many things happened this week too...
more to the form of relationship...
we have been quarreling for months and getting back and quarrel again?
what has happened to me?
why?

I...i..i...
well...i am back to the old self of me few years back...
timid and likes to keep things to myself?
other then that...i am also easily getting emotional and ...and...
easily jealous i think...not think but TRUE!

Aaarrrggghh!!!!!
so freaking hate the way I am now...
I am the issue for the causes...!!!!
anyone.....help me please....
why?!!?
why!?!?!
WHY!?!?!?!
HELP ME!!!

I want to be normal like anyone else...
been seeing videos or maybe heard phrases from friends,family and etc...
they keep telling me: "Be what you are. Why do you want to be like someone else?We are what we are,this is what makes us different from others and to be original..."

I just do not get this message...
telling me to be myself but when I am in my relationship,THEY freaking ask me to CHANGE to a better person?!?!
what is this?!!
I do not understand...

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Sunday, October 4, 2009

Bad week perhaps?

Just had a terrible week...
got back my cpro results and had DE test...
both was bad enough to make me think of committing suicide lol
either how it is just only test :S
need to work harder for finals~
gambateh~

On thursday night, we had a mooncake festival.
I was part of the committee to organize the event(in charge of games).
Not sure whether they were enjoying or not...hopefully they enjoy :)

To expose something about me...i am a guy that hates taking pictures...
whenever someone wanted to take pictures with me...i would refuse....
but...i never refuse taking pictures in groups especially after an event or so...

There is this junior which refuses to take photos(something like me lol)
So i told him...
RIZ:come take pictures together~
junior: nah, i dislike taking pictures...
RIZ: why?
junior: cause i look bad in photos...
RIZ: well...i look bad too...im not handsome like others but im encouraging you to take this pic...
junior: why?
RIZ: cause...taking single shots and couple shots are not so convincing. You look at the picture and you will feel bad about yourself because your face exposed more in those pictures and you feel sad -.-" everyone grows old...therefore we need these moment pictures(group pictures after events) to make you remember about the good memories or maybe bad memories?

I was trying to convince him to take picture with us :)
Well we distribute the pictures for free later on...so why not get a picture and keep it in his album?
It is good to look at pictures once in a while to remember what we had been going through,what had made us into the person we are today...there will be bad and good but hopefully the good ones are captured and kept.
No one wants to remember the bad things right?
Oh well, camwhore is exceptional!!! There is no meaning to this time =.=" waste of time and batteries :P
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